dee! haha! you noticed! fake de lar... we oso nosense de... so... lao gong don't get jealous! XD

i did shot-put today. it was. bad. the first time i threw, i got 5.2m after that, all the results just got worser... i am not happy with myself. is it because i'm sick? or is that just an excuse to cover-up my being plain lousy. i'm lousy in everything. always getting the lowests marks in class. i have zero stamina. i can't study well, and i can't do sports. i'm just shit. what is wrong with me. i don't wanna continue JC, i have nobody close to me there. the only one is stopping school already. i want to go out to work. i don't want to study anymore. where are you?! tammy?! yoyo?! talk to me please... i don't think you two remember me don't you? i can't talk to shih han about this, i don't want her to feel bad! where are you when i need you? will someone talk to me?
will anyone know?